Life Through My Bipolar Eyes

Enough with the vague postings and shit. This is what went down. I fell in love with a woman who is in a committed relationship. I, a woman in a committed relationship, fell in love with a woman in a committed relationship. Obviously, you can see where the trouble lies. I told Matt, my husband about it. Luckily, I am married to Jim Halpert from "The Office" because he was and is a saint about these things. Well, this particular thing has never happened before. Being pansexual, I have been attracted to many women, but never have I fallen for one before. I tried to run, push away, and even bury my feelings. But, just as love tends to do, it came bursting forth in a magnificent way. ---- Our friendship is now deteriorating. And I hate that. I am bombarded with questions about what is going on, who are you talking about, are you okay. I am also being bombarded with harassment. ---- I am a loving person. I am also an extremely private person. This blog and m...

To be vulnerable is a gift. To share your vulnerability with another is even more so. To share your open vulnerability of love is the greatest gift of all. I feel bad for how things went down, but I will never regret sharing a gift such as my heart. Love is meant to be in this wicked world. If it wasn't how would we survive? Sometimes the thought of losing someone or not being with them can make you turn to wicked, venomous words and actions. It is difficult to remember in that moment that jealousy is powerful. But love is the ultimate reason why. The next step from here is moving on. Whether they want you or not, life must continue and you must be gracious. Ouch... Being gracious towards rejection. That sounds so brutal. In reality being bitter is easier to come by than graciousness. However, the bitterness will only drive those you love away and you will wind up hurting yourself in the process. Being gracious and becoming grace is a gift. A gift only vulnerabilit...