I wish you peace

I still love you. Even if you don't love me. Even if you hate me. I will still love you.

You have meant so much to me for so long now, that I can't just stop loving you.

I know you are a good person and I know that good person is still in there somewhere.

I wish you well.

So badly I want to hold you and tell you I love you and how I want you to be happy, the way I am happy.

You would probably pull away.

I don't know how to help. I don't think I can.

It's hard to let go of this idea I have that I can help everyone, but I'm learning how to do it with you.

I just want you to have whatever it is that will make you happy, whether I am in the picture or not.

More than anything, I wish you peace.

I wish you peace in everything you do.

Peace in your mind, words, heart, actions, everything.

I wish you peace.

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